Grigory Ryzhakov – Russian Writer

My Blog. Letting Go

Letting Go (by gnuckx [CC-BY-2.0 (], via Wikimedia Commons)

I hardly ever go back to the past, My eyes look into the future. As I move through life, things stick to me like shells and other sea animals to an old barge. So, from time to time I need to let them go.

I left home when I was sixteen to travel thousand miles to Moscow where I started at the university. Six years later I emigrated to England, where I finished my studies and became a scientist.

I never really understood how hard it was for my parents and friends to let me go, I only knew what I felt like – born again in a different place, with memories of my previous life fading away fast. I was forgetting who I used to be.

Seems like life has its chapters. And once you finished one of them it’s archived, and you rarely find time to flip through it again: occassional meetings with old friends, looking at old photographs.

In the past two years I’ve been writing this blog, learning about self-discipline, working on my writing, exploring things as ever. Now as change entered my life again on many levels, it’s time to let go of my blog, to break the regularity of it and to write only by impulse, sometimes. I want to focus on my stories more.

It’s a paradox that change is often daunting yet it’s what I need  – to move forward, to transform. I wrote a song about it once. Here it is – CHANGE.


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  • Nynaeve Almeera

    It’s a pity I just discovered this blog courtesy of my obsessive Russian literature “phase” (which is still ongoing).

    I also left home when I was 16 in order to study at university, and now I live thousands of miles away from home. Unlike you though, I’m stuck in an entry-level job which has no connection whatsoever to my degree. I only see my family once a year–on Christmas since it is not so easy to take a leave from work. So yeah, I could probably relate a lot with your experiences.

    I’m sorry if this turned into a rant, but I wish you all the best in your future endeavors. I hope you will still drop by ocassionally to post a thought or two. 🙂

    • GrigoryRyzhakov

      thank you very much for stopping by, Nynaeve. It’s a pity that you have a job you are not satisfied with. I see my parents once a year the most, sometimes once in three years, they live so far away. Yes, I can relate to what you are saying.

      Indeed, I will keep posting content, just not that often and regular as I used to. Spreading word about Russian Literature is very important to me, so you’ll be hearing from me again.

      And you know it’s very good to have this RusianLit phase 🙂